God i hate Finals, I never get what i need to done, and i always feel unprepared.... bleh, Adderalling it up tonight to try to get my CS343 studying done.... bleh
laterz
Z
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
Monday, May 03, 2004
Old Poetry
I wrote these sometime in 2002 or 2003, while i was bored in class, and I couldn't find anything better to do, so i wrote these. If you happen accross this page, i'd appreciate your input.
Z
Bright Eyes
Beautious blue eyes burrowing
deep within my soul, seeing me and who I am, my all
but blind as to what they see
Feeling around in the dark
touching my fears and my joys,
but also blindly toying with
my mind, and tugging at
my fragile psyche, pulling
me deeper into the depths of
my self induced darkness
Chaotic Refrain
Feeling her mind in my soul, learning
making her self more adept at using and
showing her feelings, refraining from the
use of her emotions, like me, in her own
emptiness, afraid of breaking down, the long
sealed door, afraid of who she might find,
who she might end up being,
after the fall
Lost
Finding someone like me, dark inside, hard
closed off, shut and locked off from
showing outward emotion, controlled and
contorted around the deep dark, the
we have induced upon ourselves. Feeling little
but numb, and not caring any more, about
dealing with other peoples insipid problems.
Outwardly hard, but inside always roiling with
turmoilous emotions, but still not dealing
with our issues outwardly, only coming to resolutions
within ourselves, and not troubling others.
Access Denied
Blindly bleeding inside, too cold inside to care, and
too segregated from your emotions to worry.
Brooding deeply within our darkness, hiding from
the depths of our torment....
Z
Bright Eyes
Beautious blue eyes burrowing
deep within my soul, seeing me and who I am, my all
but blind as to what they see
Feeling around in the dark
touching my fears and my joys,
but also blindly toying with
my mind, and tugging at
my fragile psyche, pulling
me deeper into the depths of
my self induced darkness
Chaotic Refrain
Feeling her mind in my soul, learning
making her self more adept at using and
showing her feelings, refraining from the
use of her emotions, like me, in her own
emptiness, afraid of breaking down, the long
sealed door, afraid of who she might find,
who she might end up being,
after the fall
Lost
Finding someone like me, dark inside, hard
closed off, shut and locked off from
showing outward emotion, controlled and
contorted around the deep dark, the
we have induced upon ourselves. Feeling little
but numb, and not caring any more, about
dealing with other peoples insipid problems.
Outwardly hard, but inside always roiling with
turmoilous emotions, but still not dealing
with our issues outwardly, only coming to resolutions
within ourselves, and not troubling others.
Access Denied
Blindly bleeding inside, too cold inside to care, and
too segregated from your emotions to worry.
Brooding deeply within our darkness, hiding from
the depths of our torment....
Trying to get this new fangled thing all figured out.
Bleh trying to figure out how to change the addresses on the side panel....
Z
Z